Each New Year's day, for as long as I remember, has been filled with a list of goals.
I must do this, I will stop doing that, etc. I see now that these mental lists are just dreams. One simply dreams that one works, that is all.
In lack of true will, there is only a remedy: discipline. Spell out what you plan to do, not as a choice, but as an obligation. Something that you MUST do, no matter what.
Apparent freedom is your enemy....